
I'm not actually really going to write about this. I can't. Not now at least. Now at 2 am or so which hasn't been "too late" for me in a good long while. I have this nasty habit of getting into these periods where I watch a lot of war movies, read a lot of war books, poems, etc. I stick to 20th century, mostly. The rise of killing devices. It seems so much more tragic, so much more outrageous when 1,000 lives are taken with the push of a button, rather than with 4 days of grueling combat. Old War to me is too textbook, too wrapped up in the ideals and emotions we want to remember. There's heroes and pride, dignity and betrayal. All those Edmund Dante-style intangible words and archetypes..does that make sense?
20th century war is about descent, it seems to me most times. Dehumanization. Dirt.
I mean, that sentence can stand without the "20th century" of course, but not at this moment to me.
Cameo Appearance
I had a small, nonspeaking part
In a bloody epic. I was one of the
Bombed and fleeing humanity.
In the distance our great leader
Crowed like a rooster from a balcony,
Or was it a great actor
Impersonating our great leader?
That’s me there, I said to the kiddies.
I’m squeezed between the man
With two bandaged hands raised
And the old woman with her mouth open
As if she were showing us a tooth
That hurts badly. The hundred times
I rewound the tape, not once
Could they catch sight of me
In that huge gray crowd,
That was like any other gray crowd.
Trot off to bed, I said finally.
I know I was there. One take
Is all they had time for.
We ran, and the planes grazed our hair,
And then they were no more
As we stood dazed in the burning city,
But, of course, they didn’t film that.
Not many people have really seen the Slaughterhouse-Five adaptation. I liked it. Might've been my default love for Billy Pilgrim (seemed well-cast to me). The Dresden parts are really...well good, but not good obviously. Though it's been a while since I've seen that one.

Stalingrad? There's another.
Though these past few days I've just been flipping through everything Tim O'Brien there is on my shelves and looking up scenes from Full Metal Jacket and Apocalypse Now.
The latter we are studying in my lit/film class alongside Conrad's "Heart of Darkness"
A bit from that:
“It was unearthly, and the men were—No, they were not inhuman. Well, you know, that was the worst of it—the suspicion of their not being inhuman. It would come slowly to one. They howled and leaped, and spun, and made horrid faces; but what thrilled you was just the thought of their humanity—like yours—the thought of your remote kinship with this wild and passionate uproar. Ugly. Yes, it was ugly enough; but if you were man enough you would admit to yourself that there was in you just the faintest trace of a response to the terrible frankness of that noise, a dim suspicion of there being a meaning in it which you—you so remote from the night of first ages—could comprehend. And why not?”
In terms of the adaptation, Congo to Nam it is pretty cool to see. The general mood is what matters I think, in both. And that's most definitely what carries.
Really what initially made me want to put anything up here at all was the first bit of the movie. I swear its on repeat. My head is filled with The Doors.
Wasn't surprised in the slightest to see that details for Apocalypse were inspired by Aguirre, the Wrath of God. I did the Herzog/Kinski dive last summer, and this one was definitely my favorite. Here's the last scene because it's killer and you should watch it regardless if you're worried about a spoiled end or not. The theme of all this is definitely shitshow so inevitably:
Not many people have really seen the Slaughterhouse-Five adaptation. I liked it. Might've been my default love for Billy Pilgrim (seemed well-cast to me). The Dresden parts are really...well good, but not good obviously. Though it's been a while since I've seen that one.

Stalingrad? There's another.
Though these past few days I've just been flipping through everything Tim O'Brien there is on my shelves and looking up scenes from Full Metal Jacket and Apocalypse Now.
The latter we are studying in my lit/film class alongside Conrad's "Heart of Darkness"
A bit from that:
“It was unearthly, and the men were—No, they were not inhuman. Well, you know, that was the worst of it—the suspicion of their not being inhuman. It would come slowly to one. They howled and leaped, and spun, and made horrid faces; but what thrilled you was just the thought of their humanity—like yours—the thought of your remote kinship with this wild and passionate uproar. Ugly. Yes, it was ugly enough; but if you were man enough you would admit to yourself that there was in you just the faintest trace of a response to the terrible frankness of that noise, a dim suspicion of there being a meaning in it which you—you so remote from the night of first ages—could comprehend. And why not?”
In terms of the adaptation, Congo to Nam it is pretty cool to see. The general mood is what matters I think, in both. And that's most definitely what carries.
Really what initially made me want to put anything up here at all was the first bit of the movie. I swear its on repeat. My head is filled with The Doors.
Wasn't surprised in the slightest to see that details for Apocalypse were inspired by Aguirre, the Wrath of God. I did the Herzog/Kinski dive last summer, and this one was definitely my favorite. Here's the last scene because it's killer and you should watch it regardless if you're worried about a spoiled end or not. The theme of all this is definitely shitshow so inevitably:
Grass
by Carl Sandburg
- PILE the bodies high at Austerlitz and Waterloo,
- Shovel them under and let me work--
- I am the grass; I cover all.
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- And pile them high at Gettysburg
- And pile them high at Ypres and Verdun.
- Shovel them under and let me work.
- Two years, ten years, and passengers ask the conductor:
- What place is this?
- Where are we now?
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- I am the grass.
- Let me work.

















